bad...bad..
why am i here? oh well, my parents are out..i kinda secretly used the com..supposed to study....take note of the word, 'supposed'. i am not feeling well,the usual headaches are coming back..worried. dad asked to go to hospital on sat, how to? when i have extra lessons till noon. hate going to hospita.have been visiting there since pri 4, i gave up going back for check-ups. its always the same screening..the same procedeurs..the same blood ' donation'. hate the place. i dont mind dieing young, maybe even tomorrow.tis may sound sick, but i hate living. i hate life. its a chore. this thinking of mine has persisted since i was young.so, to all, i am not crazy or nuts.its just me. die young means no worries. going to heaven is my destiny. i dont look forward to anythg,absolutely nthg. life to me is just a boring plain piece of art. no colors no designs. just plain. i wont commit suicide coz its a grave sin and i wont go to heaven. to all, pray that i die young. oh ya, make it a peaceful one. maybe in my sleep. i dont want to go through therapies and different torturous stages before i die.
its all for today.gonna hide in the comfort of my room, trying to chase the terrible throb in my head. not forgetting doing some work.i dont like mugging and staying up late. the only reason why i study is coz i wan to make money..lots of money..
i dont find the real reason of life. no point enlightening me wth some philosophical wise words.i shut my ears to such nonsense. they are all crafted by bored people who also find life meaningless. their endless boredness have created such 'wise' words.
