lots of thgs happened this week...all bad. i wonder if its my bad week or sth. i'm not supposed to believe in such crap. i know this particular person wld not be reading my blog, he/she doesnt read it at all. i need to pen down my thots here,its gonna be vague but no questions asked.
it's too late,things will be wth the same as before.dont take the blame on me, u have ur own faults too. i hate to hear u saying its always my fault that caused such thgs to happen. respect? u never respcted me, its not abt showering gifts or paying for thgs. its a whole different thg.think abt urself before u start putting the blame on me. yes, i did hurt u a few times. stop digging up the fucking past.so wat, u are a saint? come on, u did the same thgs to me. i never blamed anyone else but myself for getting in such mess.what's more, when its my exams.stop asking not to study or read.its not that i read when ur wth me or i did sth despising like flirting,smoking,talking to boys.i changed,u? U said thgs gonna be fine like before, stop comforting urself. u are living in a world of self-denial stop procastinating. all i want to think abt is my exams. i alredy flunked my physics n chem practical. i aint smart,i am just willing to put in effort. junior college? i dont have the confidence,maybe cj. admit i wasnt close 2 u before, that why i said such thgs in the past . now ?come on, did i say such thgs? is ur attitude got to do wth boys hormones? let bygones be bygones. i always do so,i cant say the same for u . i wish..yet if wishes werehorses,beggers could ride..my confidence level and trust in u has dropped to nil.wat u said were horribly awlful.i am sure, i wont be able to forget it until i move on. its my folly that i got into such a mess.
i feel much better..phew. okie,good bye
