there are some things in life that are uncontrollable, these are the moments when i feel totally helpless and clueless about things around me. unbashly,i am a controller of my life, i decide what i want to do, when i want to do it, who i want to do it with, where i want to do it etc. my life has all the way been relatively independent since young. i hate it when my parents ask me to study or what to do next in the next stage of my life. others controlling my life is a big NONO. i'm quite certain it nutured a strong minded woman with her own opinions. my bf calls me 'princessy and horrible tantrums'. i;m not surprised or abacked by the comments at all. i'm very much a perfectionist in what i do and have certain goals i want to achieve. but, my behavoir has also brought the hidieous side of me, which most of my close friends should have seen. when i'm pissed, it means ' GET LOST' . the horrible things that i can do or say. plainly, i turn into a work of the devil. on a brighter note, the devil in me has been turning into an angel haha. i guess so.
somethings just dont turn out the way you may want it to be. should we embrace the present or try to turn things around? what do we do when we feel scared, afraid,terrified? the complexity of life is what none of us will ever understand, not even a nobel prize winner.
my mind is full of thoughts right now, random issues flooding my already occupied mind. i feel as thought its exploding soon. whats should i do when my exams are in 6 days time? is it time to take a break,enjoy life by sipping lattee and savouring every flavour and texture of chicago cheesecake,or should i just continue where i've stopped?
all the best people.
