baby's has started work today..leaving me alone for the next 1 week before my internship starts(YAY!!). it has been a jammed packed week for me..been going out almost everyday except today . meet ups, movies,shopping,failed sun tanning trip and swimming. which reminds me, i shall take a dip late , hope elton is wrong about the gloomy sky.
i just got off the phone with baby,nagged at him like a old grandma. i msged him 3 times yester but NO reply at ALL. i thought it was sleeping..until he told me he slept at 10pm last night. when i msged him at 5 plus and 8 plus. he blatanly said "oh,ur msgs never ask me anythg. how to reply" . so u need a question kinda msg to reply. wth. hello, my phone bill not very cheap arh..ask me to call u when i have free sms to spare. and asking me to ask u to call me. wtf. "hi baby, can u call me?" do i look that cheap to you( ouch).
goodness . i hate it how he has thiis we-are-already-going-to-the-4th-yr atttidue that totally pisses me off. taking me for granted and taking us like a pile of shit.
my parents said sth really weird yester "so u and cc ,when are u gonna apply a flat?" i was stunned. like shocked. i said "i have no plans ,at least until i start off a career" true..i dont wanna sound like a eager to get married of person. in fact, i am not sure if i've found sb i want to spend the entire life with . this morning, i was just thinking. a person can be a good bf but not necessarily a good life time companion. vice versa.
it takes a lot of courage and determination to give your entire life to that one person- whom i havent found. i know this sounds horrible to some , i have been dating the same person for almost 4 years and i am talking about all these right. but its a truth that i know. i dont even know if i want to get tied down.. or have kids etc. maybe i just want to have freedom with a companion, just like now.no committment.no nothing.
i really dont know what i want at the moment- all i know is i want to focus on my studies, get a well deserved 3 years worth of slogging degree and a well accomplished job and position that allows me to jet fly around the world. i am pretty sure i've found the company that suits my personality and my interest to travelling. its a grades that i'm worried about. just 1 more year and 2 more major exams before i graduate, i am going to need God's help for the new year coming this August.
