about me

2010-05-01T23:38:00.003+08:00

Trust in the Lord. this is what i have to learn right now..Trust in Him.

2010-04-30T08:31:00.002+08:00

i feel screwed up..screwed up in 22 years of my life. its first time i feel i cant pass a damn exam. this is bad..im in my final year. if i screw this up, i cant graduate on time..im scared..

last night,after jogging, i went to mary's shine. i knelt in front of her, for the first time, praying and thanking her for guiding me through the years..and asking ffor her grace and foregiveness to let me pass this paper. i never felt so scared before, maybe because this is my final year. its so scary the though of failing this.

no matter what others say..i am not comforted at all. i feel so tired from the sleepless nights after this paper. sleeping at 2am waking up at 8am. this is definitely not me..i moment i wake up, the thought of this paper flushed into my head like an alvanche tumbling onto me..its heavy burden cross i have to carry till june when the results are released..

what i am so angry or disappointed about is this.. i studied damn hard for this paper, i did. but the questions were beyond the textbook/notes..something which im not familar with..but the other students had an upper hand due to their finance background. i am accountancy student taking a finance course. i love this course, coz it is interesting, and i decided to follow my heart in staying put in this course.. was it a wrong decision that i made? was it wrong move to follow your heart? please dear Lord, prove me wrong.. i prayed to you regarding if i should stay in this module.. and you guided me to stay on. i really hope i got your message correctly.

the more i type or recollect about the paper, the more heartbroken i feel. 40marks gone out of the window. not even method marks, because i got it all wrong from the start..the method i used is totally wrong. not even a sentence of working is correct. 70% final..70%. out of the remaining 30%. 10% attendence- which i will get. 20% quizz - best 5 out of 8 quizzes. i think i got 4. to get a passing grade : C..seems so tough for me.really.

please pray for me..the only hope i have now is God's Grace and mercy..

2010-03-12T16:11:00.002+08:00

sometimes life is a bitch..i really dont know what will happen next,really. im confused. at times i feel happy,blessed but i still feel alone. is it because we have been together for so long, that we forget how we actually came about? do you really still care or just too comfortable to think about us.

i need to be strong. focus on my studies ,its only 2 months more to go. get a good cert, enjoy my working life and see how things go. i cant commit now, its too dangerous. its not that i dont love you anymore, but i dont feel the love from you anymore..i feel that what you are doing is because you have been doing so for the last 4.5 years..it becomes a routine.

im trying very hard to heck care.

2010-03-10T22:49:00.002+08:00

i must practice self control.idiot.i spent another 42$ on a jumpsuit =XX now i cant get more masks for myself..nvm, i dont even need it since i still have like 8 pieces left.sucks to be a girl.

i cant be materialistic! think of holiday trips in may and june! and save money for house!! yes, im soon to be a working adult, i need to start thinking of my future..insurance payments and house. i dont want to grow up

2010-03-02T19:31:00.002+08:00

i need to start controlling my spending.. argh..i paid way too much this month =(

-convo ball:69$
asos dress: 69$
airticks : 289$
ocbc card remake:20$ (STUPID MEE). i didnt know that the max tries for atm password is 4. i kept trying and trying till the machine ate my card.idiot. and now i have to remake coz this card can be used overseas. TOOPID me

total :447$ in feburary alone. i feel like shooting myself.

2010-02-23T19:58:00.002+08:00

i was comtemplating if i shoul get this runched dress from f21..coz the length seemed a bit too short for my height. i thought for quite awhile due to the price and suitability of it. then i decided to get it through f21 spree. but but, so suay, OOS when the spree organizer ordered the item =(
so i guess im not fated to get the dress at all! im feel pretty happy coz im quite sure the dress is a bit too short for me =XX hehe..but i still wanted it coz it is actually quite prettty!

2010-01-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

i stopped buying blogshop clothes for very long coz i realise i usually dont wear them after like once/twice. then today when i came home, i saw a dress i really like on one of the sites. its the dress i wanted to buy at robinson but was retailing like 150$ ouch, but the material is better lah. i was 1 hour late in posting my orders..i hope it goes through. i doubt it will since its usually snapped up in 15 mins..seriously , the tax authorities such start taxing these super rich online shops. tax on the use of online space bleahh..these people are really rich man..their own cost is probably admin cost. come on, they use blog sites to post their items, which is FREEE. everythg free expect admin cost, the only operating cost is probably shooting cost and transport. most of them are rich enough to have their own cars. bbut its alll hard effort ,kudos to them!

i reallty hope to get the dress and not fall under the BO orders that prob only arrive in march? i wanna wear the dress for cny. im pathetic, i only managed to get 2 tops from vivo last friday. i scoured the whole f21 ,zara, rv,p&b,warehouse..mentally prepared to splurge like 200$ on a nice dress. but hell no, couldnt find one i like.like only k , not even love. i had to settle for 2 tops, both i honestly dont really love..but baby said they were nice..ok lah,since they were both very under my budget..

sigh....

2010-01-21T20:09:00.002+08:00

sigh..im really suffering from exhaustion from school. i took a 1.5hour nap and yet im still very shagged out. 2 days of 830am-230pm lessons straight. plus im helping out in school every mon and fri both starts at 830am. thankfully it ends next week! phew..after which i have only 2 day week. saturday is my tuition day. cant wait for next week to end! i need my rest man.

finallllyyyyyy...im going out tmr with baby. either town or vivo. i need to relax,shop and eat..perfecttt. but we cant hang out too late coz baby has marathon competition on saturday =( i need to get some clothes, if i see any suitable ones. otherwise, the money goes to my holiday trip fund =) hehheh.

this year is a special year for baby and i. its our 5th year anniversary in June , time flies man..half a decade is gone! but still im glad our relationship is as childish as ever, it keeps us young =)

okieedoykes! im gonna read up and start on next week,s tutorials. im having project meeting this sunday! how depressing..a project meeting that is only worth 5% shit right.

2010-01-19T17:08:00.003+08:00

cny is in 3 weeks! i havent bought a single thg yet, not even a pair of socks! =(( i havent been chasing blogshops too.. i m too busy to head down to town argh. i just i have to either recycle my clothes ( seriously nthg wrong lorh tsk tsk) or find some time to get some clothes. in fact, i havent had the cny shopping since uni. in the past, my parents will bring us out for cny shopping get some new clothes. on cny eve, they will ensure we have new undergarments laid out , new pyjames and clothes. but the traditional has since stopped since uni. i guess times changed, so has us. we stop following traditions, and with the ubusy schedule we all have now, its tough to keep up with the old times. this is a hard fact of growing up. we are no longer kiddos we used to be, worryfree. now i worry about my future, paying of bills, giving my parents money, my promotions and job prospects. this is the tough life of being an adult!

praise the lord

2009-12-30T17:10:00.002+08:00

results were released today! i was so afraid of what my results would be.. and surprise surprise! its a pleasant surprise =)) my Aplus! i wished i had such results in year 1, coz im quite sure if i had, i would graduate with first class honours =XX i know know.. i cant be anymore grateful about my results =)

i can finally go for my bali trip and enjoy myself to the max!! no regrets.

since i am only having a 2 day week next sem (heh heh), i decided to apply for a part time job in school!! i know so far right hougang-ntu. but anyways im buying the mrt concession. i hope i can get the job. its not much $7/hour ,actually quite okie lah..considering i just sit there and rot. not bad leh. i can even meet up with the bf for lunch in schl! coz our timetable clashes. =(

im gonna earn some moolahs for my trips after graduation! part time school job plus my weekend tuition job. *fingers crossed *

merry xmas!

2009-12-24T15:46:00.003+08:00

its xmas eve and im enjoying the cool breeze blowing into my room. =)
thanks baby for the xmas surprise. Gucci wallet and sponsoring our bali + jogyakarta trip in january =) thnks love!

for me, i just pray that my results will be up to my expectation =XX

2009-12-23T10:46:00.002+08:00

thank goodness i have a manual car license. phewww... baby and i are gg indonesia in january and im planning to rent a car there. 99% of the cars are manual transmission and the 1% of automatic are extremenly expensive like $56USD for 8 hours. phewwww... when i was taking my driving lessons, my mum was against the idea of me going for the manual license. mainly coz its more difficult to pass. its true . you have to worry about getting stalled and the clutch and the roads and the signals. its mulit-tasking. But, stubborn as i was, i wanted the manual because most countries till now are still manual and most importantly, i want a sports car next time. manual car allows you more control of car unlike automatic transmission.

i am 99% keen on renting one in indo, lets see if baby is convinced!

2009-12-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

im currently planning for my holiday trip for next year..preferably after my finals and before i start work on july. i have 2 countries in mind- australia and japan. ooh, this holiday trip that im planning is for bf and me. australia because bf has not been there before. japan because i have been wanting to visit japan for a long time. but japan is more ex than australia.. thats why im considering australia too.

did some research on the air ticks. surprising, air ticks to japan is quite cheap approx 600$ to and fro.im pleasantly surprised. but the lodging is killer. i search for hostels..and per night dormitory hostel cost appro 50$ a night already. ouch.

air ticks for australia is approx 300-400$ and hostels are around 30$ per night.

i even checked out the tour packages for japan..but they dont appeal to me.. those temple visitng, disney world theme park is not what im looking for. i want FOOD. JAPAN = FOOD. so yea man.. i doubt tour packages suitable for my ideal japan trip.

australia (perth) there's nthg much lah..i suppose go there shop at cotton on? =XXX eat oysters and chips . more relaxed trip i supposed...

not forgetiing grad trip with the uni mates... honestly, im really not sure if im able to go for both the trips.. if i have a choice, i will definitely want to go hols with the bf. but its GRAD trip.

ARGH.

2009-12-05T19:16:00.002+08:00

ijust planned my timetable for sem 2..haha. 2 day week -.0 9 end latest at 230 for the 2 days im in school. okie lah, coz of of it is project based. so its actually 3 day week. but still!! woah. i need to get a job man..i cant tolerate myself being so "free" and idling at home..

the old ones are here

2009-11-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

the grandpop and grandma have officially moved in. not hurray spirit mood. blah blah yaya..

2009-11-26T16:36:00.001+08:00

8th december 8th december 8th december.
ARGH.

macdonald breakfast!

2009-11-25T21:05:00.002+08:00

im craving for macs now , so strange coz im not the junk food person haha. the last time i ate macs was gosh..i suppose when i was curious about the mac griddles!

so, since breakfast order starts at 4am. i attempt to crawl out of bed at 6am to get my 2.50$ sausage mac muffin and coffee! i initially wanted the pancakes, but after looking the the nutrition list on the website, i decided for a healthier option instead.

2 down, 2 more to go!

2009-11-25T08:12:00.002+08:00

bro and i had a good talk just now, and i found out something, i started laughing my ass off in pure mockery. its superr hilarious .okok. i shall spill the beans.
my grandparents (paternal) are coming over to stay (for permananet) since both of them are rather old. original plan ( at least my dad,s and mum) was to rent our their place in order to generate income for them to stay here. yes, my mum is retiring soon (laugh out loud pls, she is only 50, and she wants to retire. god bless her soul). so my dad is actually the only breadwinner of the house. soo, we do need the extra income (from rental) to support my grandparents (hiring a maid plus food. my grandparents eat expensive food. i mean it. expensive fish). yes.. my parents bought the entire set of furniture for their new room (the ex-maid's room) and even liasied with the property agent to find a tenant for their house.

until..until today hahhahaa. my mum heard from an aunt that my grandparents are not keen on renting the house. LOL. after 3 weeks of drama, and they say they dont want to rent out their house LOL!! so dumb really. so i was like " whats the empty house for? you mean money will drop from heaven into the empty house?" LOL. seriously, mocking laughter.

my parents are super "kang jiong" over them coming over, within 1 week they bought all the furniture (2 beds, 2 wardrobe, 1 big cainet and 1 small cabinet) YA. THATS A LOT. they bought everythg without confirming with them if they are keen on renting the house. OMG. really man... seriously, i dont care or give a damn. coz my life aint Changing because of them. pity the parents, they probably have to squeeze more cash out of their pockets to feed 3 more people (grandparents and maid) and leave the empty house collecting dust and no income generated (must as well sell the house right).

thinking abt the whole drama makes me laugh.really.this is because no actually planning was done before hand.HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA.

okie over with the whole fiasco, back to books. 2 more papers to go!!
yester's paper was tough =((argh..it was rather shocking paper. over is over. shall concentrate on the next 2 papers.

excitedd!!!

2009-11-21T10:05:00.002+08:00

im so excited regarding the January holiday trip with baby and my friend! =) i sounds all so perfect, even our resort is all so perfect =) the price tag for the resort is not cheap, its one of those luxurious resort but we really deserve it after being together so long and all the hard core studying. thanks to baby sponsorship, my savings and dad's sponsorship =)

meanwhile, i need to FOCUS. very very important. i cant cant have mentally that coz im already employed (yes, i got a job after graduation already =)) and start to slack. i need to prove to myself that i can excel. i dont want an average grade, i want a "A".

i want to earn big bucks for my parents, to allow them to lead a very comfortable life for their retirement. and i want to earn big bucks for my future, with baby,hopefully if all thgs go through. we have our dreams and aspirations and im glad both of us are working hard towards it. im glad that baby is doing veryvery well in school. so proud of him =)

u know what..i have some friends, one particular friend who likes to brag abt how rich her bf family is.once, she keep saying "my bf drives a Mercedes to school" i replied "huh..his or his parents?" she said quietly "his parents lah.." WTF. seriously. i seriously dont give a damn how rich somebody is, im not jealous abt it either. because as students, all our "wealth" is our parents'. isnt it? we take pocket money from them, we spend their money..nothing.absolutely nothing is ours! so , we are as good as nothing-worthless.

im proud to hear of friends who support themselves through their life, really salute their determination and strength. i have friends who stopped taking allowance from their parents, instead teach tuition to support themselves and yet most of them are top students in uni. its very very encouraging to hear that.

lastly, i dont care how rich whoever is. really. wealth to me depletes very fast. to me, knowledge and intelligence is much more precious that money. its like, a wealthy family no-big-deal, without intelligence, u cant survive long. but, if u are intelligent, im confident that it will bring you to places out of ur reach and wealth rolls in naturally there after!

animal rights

2009-11-17T09:13:00.003+08:00

recently, my dad sent me an email regarding dolphins slaughtering in (cant remember which country), the pictures were very sad..its just pools of blood and slaughtered dolphins. it made me very angry. in fact, cruelty to animals makes me very angry. how can an educated modern society be so uncivilized and selfish. i was having this feeling that such people will suffer in future for their misdeeds, that is taking away an innocent life.

just yester, i read a heartwarming article in straits times regarding the successful adoption of a 3 legged dog. yes, 3 legged, this dog was found in a cage and had to be amputated, if im not wrong, its leg got clamped in the wire cage. its really warm to hear that singaporeeans are adopting such animals, to give them a better life. which other animals deserve such kind hearted treatment?

which brings me to cross-breeding article publish on ST sometime last week. i think it was saturday or sunday's papers. I dont approve such commercial reasons for crossbreeding. cross-breeding is basically a "try an error" procedure, as stated in the article, one pet shop owner said " we try an error, if the new dog is not pleasing, it will be put on the shelf until somebody wants to buy it " WTF!! SERIOUSLY. and what if nobody wants to buy it, how? only one way - put her/him down.

if u cross-breed and its already tried and tested: FINE. i have no comments as long as the dog lives. Otherwise, maybe you can put urself in their shoes. i hope these people's unethical way of making money will suffer one day.somehow.

as for me , i dont have the means yet to own another dog after Sporty's death, because of parents disapproval.

i vowed to myself, when i start working and having my own apartment, i will adopt a dog. not a fanciful pretty looking dog but rather a dog with a sad history because i want to make him/her happy for the rest of their live. some may disapprove of my opinion, but if im given a choice: baby or animal. i will definitely chose animal because to me, they are the most innocent and pure creation of God's wonders.They deserve all the love and care in the universe.

2009-11-14T16:03:00.001+08:00

im on cloud nine!!
so happy with my quiz results =)) if i continue to revise till exams, i may may get an A =) if i dont screw up. so motivated!! its the toughest core in ur entire uni life but im so glad my tutor is super zai. fierce but he make sure u really understand ur concept =) im so happy!!

but..
i m not looking forward to audit quiz results out this wednesday =(( sucks..i screw up my mid term big time..

study study

exams in a week

2009-11-11T18:56:00.002+08:00

yapz, my title spells it all
i need to focus more!! somehow i feel more relaxed then last year..prob coz im rather consistent in my work..but i dont like feeling relaxed! gonna try another paper later, maybe i'll realise what im not sure about.

anyway, holiday plans from 3rd-9th jan 2010! WEE.booked and ready to fly off. im going to my indo friend's hometown =) love her! i probably wont be working this holid. since my last paper is on 8th december. doubt anybody wants me =(( but i'll try! just dug into my savings for this trip arghh..its so hard to ask the parents for money! oh well, my savings comes from them anyway. so ironic.

study!

exams in 2 weeks!

2009-11-02T12:08:00.002+08:00

omg.exams are in 2 weeks! gosh..
anyway, blur block me went to schl today, but realised that i mixed up the lesson days =.= gosh so ya, i wasted 3 hours travelling idiot. thnk goodness im more or less done with revision for test tmr! argh.

i SU-ed one of my finance electives and feel rather relieved. i know that i will study like super hard for it but i find it tough to absorb..its a super dry subject plus the tutor makes me dislike this subject. save myself the misery and decided to SU it. as for the project, which is due next tues but we havent even started doing it yet. i am having the heck care attitude since ive already SUed it! LALALALA

ohohhoohh, i saw agnes upcoming new collection on 18th novemeber, its FABULOUS. the self manufactured pieces are very sophisicated. ME LIKE. i am aimed like 3 pieces already =XX gonna get them when they are out. meanwhile, i shall not shop online =))

okiedyokes! STUDYING time. mug very very hard.

hate the postman

2009-10-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

arghh...i dont like the new postman..it has to be it because i never had lost mails before. it must be lost mails because i requested for reg mail, but when i check status online it states "delivery failed,transaction card delivered" but i didnt recieve any transaction cards. it has to be the postman's fault.sucker. luckily, i asked for reg post, if not i will lose my f21 items. BUT, i didnt ask for reg post for a top!!FCCCCUUKKK..so i lost it, it has been 1 week so ITs lost.FCUKERS. i cant go to the post officer to argue with them cos its normal postage!idiot. thank goodness its a sale top i paid $13 for it.=) so pheww..

i just made top ups for reg postage for scarletroom top. i dont want to lose another top.bugger. i hate the postman.

done!!! first draft only =(

2009-10-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

im so done with a bf report..i have personally compiled and edited all the individual work..3hours straight on the lappie!
but its only first draft..i expect teammates to edit/comment more..i hope!!! its if they each care abt the report...i really dunnoe man..

back to books books and no more reports until friday! another one due in 2 weeks!

2009-10-19T14:46:00.002+08:00

im feeling damn stressed out now..having a very bad splitting headache..f***.. i need to compile one of the projects and start to edit, somehow a lot of work needs to be done.. we split the workload, but to my horror, they did a very slip short individual parts. gosh..seriously shit. i was online yester just to see through one part, i spend nearly 4 hours on it. i have 3 more to go..really wasting my time. i swear they only put in like 10 mins of their time.

i am NOT touching the report today, too much time is wasted. i will do it tomorrow night instead. edit on wednesday. by thurs sent it out, call for meeting on friday to finanlise. full stop.

i have a test 2 weeks from now, a mod that is hell tough. i am still figuring out the concepts.. but its not as bad as i thought =)

need to tighten the buckle , exams in 1 month.

its play time!

2009-10-17T09:11:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes ! today is dedicated (*guilt) to play time! i havent had a day out since school started, even during recess break. so today is the day! its good because all my mid terms are done (another one coming up in 2 weeks, 2 project due in 2 weeks and 1 presentation in 1 week OUCH) and the boy's mid terms are overrr. heading to town for fooood at ion orchard (jap food!) and shopping for the boy.

i feel so sorry for the boy, he's soo busy studying that he hasn't shopped or bought any clothes, not even underwear k for like omg since early this year, like before he started work in may 2009. oh well, his studying has been paying off very very well. dean lister =)

i cant wait for dinner too! we are suppose to be celebrating his birthday , its 30th october but its pretty close to exams. initially i made reservation at melt the world and bar and billard, but that toot head doesnt want..he said we should be more solemn coz exams are nearing.o.O okie lORH. so Kushinbo instead.. after exams, melt the world!

i should get some readings done and stop wasting my time on the computer.u know..i get addicted by surfing random webbies. bad!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!

2009-10-14T10:19:00.002+08:00

i hate spree organizers that do not reply emails!!!
irritating. there's this spree organizer that hosts a lot of sprees, she's rather popular in the various spree communities because of her low rates and good service. yes, she HAD because i spreed with her a few times already. she replies emails very promptly.

BUT, recently, my loot from f21 arrived last week and i made the top up one day after she email on Wednesday. Her mailing dates are Fri and Sat. So, i expected at least a reply on Thursday that she received my top up and ready to mail it out. BUT, she has not replied to any of my emails YET. today is Wednesday, one week already. Fu*king hell..

seriously lah, its so moronic because she just sent another email saying that other parcel got shipping out. i joined one of her recent sprees. how can she not see my emails when she's logged into her email account? STRANGE.

i wanted to wear the skirt i bought f21 this weekend =( i could have if she has mailed out the items as stated by HER. i would have received it already. i paid registered postage for it, my thinking is, she has not post it out yet because reg post is quite troublesome. SICKENING.

arghh..

omg..feel like puking!

2009-10-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

omg..i just spend 1.5hours doing a market analysis..crazy. ratios after ratios, annual reports after annual reports, analysis after analysis and its only the beginning! faints.
this is what i dont like about finance mods, need to do a lot of analysis and trends and see whats going on, why increase why decreasing..whats the rationale. ahhh. i just hope my effort pays up.

despite my complains on finance projects, i do enjoy the modules. i feel encouraged to read the text and find out more about the different topics and vehicles. hmmm seems like i wont SU any of my finance modules! its tough when it comes to projects because its very much "free style" but i put a lot of effort in it.

next semester i hope to take advance tax! another of my favorite module =))

on side note, im thinking of doing temporary audit job during the 1 month break in december. its just that i need to ask my ex-colleagues =X a part of me doesnt want to go back..i shall try the job agencies first =X but which means commission!! sickening

happy girl!

2009-10-09T17:28:00.002+08:00

im a happy girl coz i feel very confident about my bf test just now =)) i did put a lot of hard mugging into this bf mod. weet. but the project 25% is giving me a terrible headache. i need to finalise the companies to be used for the research paper by this weekend, start writing the paper by next weekend. and and... another bf paper due too argh..have lots of research to do, reuters,bloombergs,wharten research database omg..

ohoh, going out next week too! i know, its next week but its the only thing im looking forward too! parents will be away so the car is for me! my bro doesnt drive hehe. he's a bad driver =X still thinking if its worth-it for me to drive out -.- im going town for some shopping before heading down to suntec for dinner. a bit dumb if i drive because its saturday means ERP charges going towards orchard and coming back. parking rates usually not fixed for saturdays, sundays only. hmmm..quite dumb. oh well, probably not drive then!

today is fridayy! means rest till 7pm before i start studying.

im happy too coz i bought a maxi dress online f21 for 7.99USD WHAHAHHAHAA originally was $24.50USD WHAHHA. i wanted to buy it a few days ago but it was quite expensive convert is like $40 plus without postage. WEEE, i was estatic when i saw the sale this morning and glad that the spree organiser just submitted the orders =) so its not OOS!

2009-10-02T19:53:00.002+08:00

i always wonder why some people are so lucky..born in such envious family background, they are given whatever they want all the time or even given things without asking for it..going to different restaurants as their weekly family day out, slashing their sup cards without thinking twice etc

and people like me, have to study sooo hard to ensure that i have a good future when i graduate. seriously lah, some of those rich ass dont even need to think about studying. they party all day, drive luxury cars and somehow through "good relationships", able to get a decent or more than decent job to support their golden life style.

i am just being super honest that their life really makes me jealous.

the ugly truth of today society is, with power and wealth, you can go far without even a blink of an eye. its goddamn true. for people like us, we slog like mad dogs, even if we do better than them, we our success in the real world is limited.
i heard that some prestigious banking positions is only for the rich to work in, people who have high networks. so damn true.

2009-10-02T07:48:00.002+08:00

3 tests, 2 projects, 1 presentation after this week that ends in 2 days time.

God Save Me.

im dying already gosh. i have yet to head out and relax instead have me either at home or in school doing academic work. idiot. final year still slog like mad. i better chiong today because i slept from 9 to 730am this morning due to large sleep deficit over the week. im still considering if i should head out for a movie with baby tomorrow..sigh,no time.

2009-09-20T09:59:00.001+08:00

today marks the end of the 4.5years relationship.
i cant keep it going thinking how he cant accepts my family.
its not a relationship that i want to be in .not at all.

goodbye and god best ur soul.

2009-09-17T22:27:00.003+08:00

life is not perfect, we cant never have everything we want..thats why we make choices,sacrifices. i always wished i had everything, not in terms of physical items, but i wished i could study and play and yet do well and maintain good relationships with people whom i cherish. but it seems rather impossible to me.

for me, unlike some lucky ones, i cant juggle different aspects of my life well..i know of some who can go out like almost every weekend and yet do well in studies (maybe not exceptional well but well in their own standards). i always valued education..i never once thought that learning stops after graduation,thats how much i value it.

during secondary schl, i had a group of girlfriends that i was rather close with. we call ourselfs the miscibles..the group of us were the havoc of the school, we challenged each other in hokkien mee eating competition during lunch, we poured water from the top of the school building..and ask me if i miss their company , yes, i do.

after o levels, we departed our ways..due to my underperformance in o level ( i expected myself to do better), i was determined to put in my best effort in the future years. i felt that i could do much better. hence, i drifted apart from them.. i didnt turn up for our group outings because i felt if i did, my studies are at stake..they were very nice, never failing to continue informing me about their outings or eating escapades. and then..i failed to turn up for one of their farewell/birthday celebration, because i had a paper in a few days time. after which, they stopped asking me out. that whats the point where i realised, our friendship stopped.

do i regret? i am not sure really. but, if my studies wasnt as well, i would probably hated myself because i played too much. i have done well since o levels to where i am today,graduating in 0.5years time. do i miss them? yes i do. would i turn back time? i have no idea.maybe i wont because studies to me is just to important.

i was looking through at their fb accounts. i felt a tinge of jealous and envious..the way their celebrated each other's 21st, their travel photos to thailand etc etc. its like, why cant i have the same as well?

this brings me back to what happened a few days ago. i was bugging my bf on how long since we last strolled down the streets of orchard, and why is it whenever we meet up studies never fail to be nigging behind each of our minds. i am glad my bf understands how important education is as well, if not, i am sure conflict of interest.

on the other hand, i am glad i have my girls from jc- val tan,ming,leti and ale. though we seldom meet, or should i say rarely meet due to university commitments as well, i really cherish them. =) speaking of which, im going to book them during the coming recess week!

2009-09-16T15:48:00.002+08:00

just returned from dim sum buffet with baby. he's been very sweet to me, i was telling him about my dim sum cravings a few days ago..and then today suddenly after my proj meeting, he came to fetch me and brought me to the dim sum buffet at city hall! i had lots of siew mai and xiao long bao =) i will never have enough of siew mai-my ultimate favourite.

was up till 2 am last night,woke up at 630am for metting today..3/4 dead but i have a stack of work awaiting me. need to complete tutorial for tmr's session and lots of readings.

i'll skip dinner today (weight conscious i am) and drag myself to complete my assignments. i hate how i cant never be a first class honours students.. you know, first class students have invitation letters from various banks send to them to attend their cocktail parties? its like begging them to join their companies..i feel super jealous. its too late for me now since its almost impossible for me to get such results. all i want now is to proof myself that im more capable then i am now.

i need to lose weight..100th million times im saying this. my bf is going to grumble again..

i'm missing u..

2009-09-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

i know i said i wont blog about my life blah blah, but i blog whenever i feel stressed out or when my mind is somewhere but not on my books. school's a bitch,whats new..but but i am starting to enjoy the module i hated the most in the begining,it takes time and effort to appreciate it ,really. its definitely a useful module if im intending to go to the financial institutions. that aside, i really dont like some tutors,gosh, not that im bias or discriminating but they do make a difference! i like Singaporean professors, they are very very dedicated to their teaching! for that, thumbs up!

its so easily for me to start missing my boy nowadays. it wasnt like this before, independent me dont really think about my bf =X but since vietnam trip, i miss him very easily.. he's been very sweet too, coming over to my place twice a week since schl started ( a month ago). i feel terrible when he does that. he's a lot of work to do and weekends are the only pure studying time..and yet i robbed it away from him. my heart aches when he has to study late till early dawn so that he can spend time with me in the day..
my heart aches so badly i sternly and honestly told him not to come over to my place during weekends anymore starting from this week onwards until the exams. i want him to do well =)

i love having somebody intelligent, not to boast, but my boy is superbly intelligent. he can tell u all about from Greek methodology to geographical areas to animals to soccer haha. thats one reason why he clicks so well with my brother,both of them are wide readers. i love u baby =)

back to my books! i need to maintain gpa,die die need to man. if not no pay increment!!

2009-09-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

school work is stressing me out quite badly. i had lessons from 1030-530pm straight today no break in between, i was damn shagged by the end of the second lesson ended at 230pm..came home feeling like a zombie,gobbled down my dinner ,took a nap and i had to drag myself out of bed at 9pm to do some work. thankfully i managed to clear what i wanted to just now! how i wished i could have continued sleeping..argh..

Stress equates to online shopping equates to cash flow out equates to lesser cash flow for my travel plans in December and my grad trip in august. i usually dont travel during December because its the holiday seasons,tickets and lodging are on the high side.. ya man,so proud coz i have been financing my own holiday trips since uni yr 1! =) quite proud of myself of being so independent. shame on those who still stretches out their hands for money for such trips. my parents paid for my bro's latest Taiwan trip and i dont even feel jealous,truly man..in fact, i feel quite sad for him at the age of 24 and still asking for money to support such private cause. really man..time to wake up.

anyway,hvv has been coming up with some really pretty pieces. i love their collections-elegance and sophisticated with those dresses very suitable for work! i spotted 2 pieces i really love but only available via backorders. the blogowner/model clare is really elegant =)) her sister is more towards the cute sexy vibe. but i prefer elegance =) i shall be patient and wait for new items on f21 before i decide on the hvv items bo closes this sun,still got time to decide! no impulse purchases !

2009-09-02T11:43:00.000+08:00

ahhhh..fuck lah.
who said final year is a breeze. fcuking hell.
my cores are damn tough..i woke up at 630am and have been doing it till now (1146am) and i am still unsure about my concept. idiot.
maybe i shld stop being so diligent to try practice questions behind the textbook! ah damn

2009-08-29T10:38:00.000+08:00

STRESSS.

2009-08-23T17:15:00.002+08:00

have been neglecting this blog space for a very long time. Its not that ive forgotten all about its presence but rather, i decided not to share my life with others. then u guys must be thinking why am i here today..im feeling kinda stressed out and simply needed somewhere to vent my excess energy out.

im taking 4 heavy modules this semester , 2 accountancy cores and 2 finance electives. i know people are thinking that i am nuts to take finance module-its damn heavy. but i thought about it for some time, 2 weeks in fact, and decided to go for something more useful rather than courses like "Genes R Us" or " TCM". I always wanted to be in financial industry, so these modules will definitely help me with that! Its definitely going to be a struggle for me, coping with final year modules (which are darn tougher than last year or any year) and 2 major business modules. I feel the pressure raising up despite only being week 2. I need constant motivation to keep up with the readings, reading text before the seminar and etc.

relationship wise, so far things have improved after the vietnam trip. we cherish each other more and i have been very accommodating as well. my personality can be rather rotten, spoilt in sense i want things my way. but it has definitely toned down after the overseas trip.

religion wise, i have been straying away from Him because of busy schedules that i forget His presence and how He has helped me so much and in many numerous ways. He helped me in getting the business modules i wanted so badly, helped me in getting the right time table ( i have 4 day week) and helping me while i drive on the roads. I used to go novena with my parents every saturday, but i havent been doing so since a year go- due to school work. its not that i dont have enough time to manage my school work, but rather, i feel the competitiveness that i need more time to study, which 90% i dont study on saturday morning. its like i feel better staying at home doing nthg (have psychological thinking that i am studying). which is all so WRONG. i will go for novena session next saturday!!

21st birthday has gone by softly and yet blissfully. i am glad for my parents,my family, my bf and many friends that remembered my birthday..not forgetting my cousins (jamie and julie =) its weird coz whenever i blog, i think about them haha. my uni friends who has successfully surprised me with an exquisitely made journal, my girls (val tan and ming) with the surprise picnic at botanical gardens ( i love tham aplenty! such that i forsee we being each other's bridesmaid haha) , baby ( for the mulberry bag , the line and the cake), my parents ( for the omega watch, the dinner filled with my favourite food-crabs).
i dont like a party rather, i like coziness with people i truly cherish a lot =)

i have typed enough to last you a few weeks or months.
fun is over. studies is top priority list now. not forgetting , Him too =)

2009-07-05T17:07:00.002+08:00

i have been looking at the various cards webbies since last night..and i have decided to ditch ocbc for uob. ocbc is super lousy, the perks are so limited unless you love to shop at Vivocity. uob is way better especially if you are a foodie. posb nah, i do too much transfers i dont want my dad to see my statement of accounts every month and scolding me off for the amount of online shopping i do. citibank- baby has it, so i shall switch to another company so that we can both enjoy more offers!

i have a 2000 word internship report due on the day i return from my backpacking trip...internship report,omg, what to write!!!! day 1..day 2...and finally day74 ? i dont know how to churn and crap out 2000 word! i am really not a crapper when it comes to report, i like it short and to the point.

anyway, i managed to get same timetable as sj and the rest of the clique! =) now it depends on how lucky i am with allotting of electives to determine if i get a 4 day week! but so far, my school days are very short like 1030-1430. i should look for a part time job to earn more $$$ for grad trip! shimin suggest we sell bikinis -.-

1 more year ..gosh..FAST man! then i still start paying my insurance, giving my parents allowance, paying for the bills like PUB etc etc..that is when i start being an Adult. a Responsible Adult

2009-05-30T21:22:00.002+08:00

there'r so many things i need and want to get!
i need new supply of contact lenses- shall head down to the optician tmr evening.
i want tops from f21 sites. arghh. i want skirt too! and heels omgg

anyway,bb and i headed down to club21 bazzar this morning. i dont know man..but bazzar is really not my kind of thg. i hate the idea of pushing and shoving around. no doubt the clothes,shoes and bags and belts are all damn cheap. AX/Diesel belts for $20 ! clothes for $30-AX jeans,skirts,tops. CK heels- 2 for $100. CK leather duffel bags -$250plus from i think 800$. its really damn cheap comparing to the usual prices like a top in AX $299 etc etc. but i only came home with 2 tops $60 in total. i couldnt stand the place =X but i had fun seeing bb's gay partner-Joel and his sister try on the clothes hahaha. it was very fun =) would i go again? i dunnoe man..

i thinking of skipping netball trng tmr to go shopping with my parents.hehehe.but again..i want to play netball. =(

anyway, ui've recived my 21 yr birthday pressie from my parents! shall reveal it anothe day!

jogging time! burn off the fats- i ate a choco donut today =( guilty guilty

2009-05-10T14:08:00.002+08:00

yester was an exciting day, it started at 6am and ended at 1am the next day. Had dim sum buffet at chin swee road with fam and grandparents at 7am okie. gosh. all i could think about is sleeping, because grandma had some CC event at 10am we had to have dim sum soo early in the morning. it was great though spending quality time with grandpa and mum and my parents too! we hardly go out for family dinners anymore, unlike the past, since my bro and i are always quite busy with school. after breakfast was shopping at Bugis BHG and OG, while dad checked out Sim Lim. It was Mum's day , she bought 3 tops and a necklace.

i left for city hall to meet my girls for a secret mission. as usual, they were half an hour late -.- it was a fantastic meet up since it everyone turned up! yapz!!! everyone =) it was fun shopping ,snapping,laughing,giggling, heart to heart talking etc etc etc. i bought 2 work shirts from Dorothy Perkins, surprising, they were very very fitting and most importantly, short sleeved!Ale bought a skirt from there too. reached home, chatted online and slept!

i was very grumpy girl in church today though.. its not that i dont like my parish, but, its a very boring atmosphere. i love to attend mass at IHM, the parishioners there are more enthusiastic which makes me more involved in church. i need a miracle =(

oh ya! internship starts tomorrow! rather excited for a new environment rather then spending money without even earning yet arghh. but..again, its going to be a very competitive environment..

2009-05-05T23:58:00.002+08:00

i'm looking at driving directions to NSRCC now .gosh. i can figure out how to go there from my house but not the other way round =X i hate to drive alone since my map reading skills is really terrible. its either i figure it out or hitch a ride from elton's bike on friday. i want to start being independent and drive alone to such places! but .. i need to get parents' consent first. it'll be my first time driving alone to unknown places.sucks.

i've recieved it!

2009-05-02T14:57:00.002+08:00

i've recieved my package and i LOVE it!! Gonnna shop for ah yi's pressie later. Its her 60th birthday tmr. hope can find her sth decent. I love daisy aunt' she loves us so much! i'm blogging from my phone haha. Baby is late againn

2009-05-02T14:08:00.000+08:00

my parcel is late..i pray its not lost coz i love the lace dress. i should have just paid more for a registered package..arghh. if its lost i think i'll buy another one. DARNN..howww siallll..

2009-05-01T12:34:00.002+08:00

baby's has started work today..leaving me alone for the next 1 week before my internship starts(YAY!!). it has been a jammed packed week for me..been going out almost everyday except today . meet ups, movies,shopping,failed sun tanning trip and swimming. which reminds me, i shall take a dip late , hope elton is wrong about the gloomy sky.

i just got off the phone with baby,nagged at him like a old grandma. i msged him 3 times yester but NO reply at ALL. i thought it was sleeping..until he told me he slept at 10pm last night. when i msged him at 5 plus and 8 plus. he blatanly said "oh,ur msgs never ask me anythg. how to reply" . so u need a question kinda msg to reply. wth. hello, my phone bill not very cheap arh..ask me to call u when i have free sms to spare. and asking me to ask u to call me. wtf. "hi baby, can u call me?" do i look that cheap to you( ouch).

goodness . i hate it how he has thiis we-are-already-going-to-the-4th-yr atttidue that totally pisses me off. taking me for granted and taking us like a pile of shit.

my parents said sth really weird yester "so u and cc ,when are u gonna apply a flat?" i was stunned. like shocked. i said "i have no plans ,at least until i start off a career" true..i dont wanna sound like a eager to get married of person. in fact, i am not sure if i've found sb i want to spend the entire life with . this morning, i was just thinking. a person can be a good bf but not necessarily a good life time companion. vice versa.

it takes a lot of courage and determination to give your entire life to that one person- whom i havent found. i know this sounds horrible to some , i have been dating the same person for almost 4 years and i am talking about all these right. but its a truth that i know. i dont even know if i want to get tied down.. or have kids etc. maybe i just want to have freedom with a companion, just like now.no committment.no nothing.

i really dont know what i want at the moment- all i know is i want to focus on my studies, get a well deserved 3 years worth of slogging degree and a well accomplished job and position that allows me to jet fly around the world. i am pretty sure i've found the company that suits my personality and my interest to travelling. its a grades that i'm worried about. just 1 more year and 2 more major exams before i graduate, i am going to need God's help for the new year coming this August.

2009-04-22T20:19:00.001+08:00

so i've agreed to joining kp's netball tournament and i'm excited! i cant wait for exams to end and work to start. its netball every week, though the training is at Singapore Physical Education near botanical gardens. i checked gothere, it takes 48mins for me to get there on Sunday 10am. so means, i can still attend church with dad! but need to rush there after service. =( no breakfast dates with daddy dearest.

2009-04-21T22:57:00.003+08:00

i like old navy casual wear but it doesnt come cheap for the nice ones.
the skirts are awesome, the flowly ones i liked but 24USD, plus shipping which can easily add up to 40 plus-50. not very worth it leh.

i just spreed for f21 top and 2 old navy tanks.- i love their tanks. its great! i dont like f21 tanks but its damn cheap 3.50USD for one. omg. thats y i refuse to buy those from topshop that are terribly overpriced. still comptemplating on whether to get the laced top from a spreeblog:its pretty and sweet. 24$,not bad .

which means-my cash outflow within 2 hours-$75 dollars. and again, another cardigan from the same blog shop zara inspired is something i have been eyeing for long time: damage:33. so total damage:105$ creepy lah. online shopping is bad.

i need to save some moolahs for after exam parties and expenditure. my best friend val tan's birthday (cant save on that =)) she's a special babe! janice's birthday and outings with uni mates on Friday and 1 week with baby before he commences work. tentatively, STEAAMBOAT,CARL's JUNIOR, shoppinng!! (i need belts and skirts and shoes- i refrained myself from ordering from f21 k) ,baking plus cooking and lots of runs and swims. i intent to complete the entire macritchie trek before we leave for vietnam on 19th july.

speaking of which, i really pray very very hard that my internship ends on 17th july as my school propose. no official announcement by the company yet though =X

2009-04-16T15:22:00.001+08:00

i am so shagged. 2 papers in consecutive days. goodness. can die leh. no more energy for 2 more papers. first paper was okieee, second paper law was dammit tough. i spend the most effort on law because i understand the principles. but...the questions were easy!! one question alone is 55 marks. can die. the question was super long and lenghty, given the exam atmosphere, i was freaking out already. gosh. i need to calm down man. i hate afternoon papers. they never ever work for it. my peak period is in the morning.

i was soooo drained i napped for 3 hours just now. cant ta han. and i still feel rather tired.

i need to pull through the next 2 papers for next week!

2009-04-10T18:48:00.003+08:00

i'm in a huge dilemma now. easter vigil tmr or out with baby? i would chose out with baby, i really need a break prob shopping or spending some time out before my paper on Tuesday. Going out on sunday is big NONO since its too near my exams. its either tmr or no more until 24th April.

its not that church is boring, i'm going to IHM, so its really quite nice. But, i dont really "Relax".

i just have to find a nice way to tell my parents because i know they will want me to go for easter vigil. =( i wanna relax ya know.

2009-04-09T15:24:00.000+08:00

my profs are like my best friends now. i email them whenever i have a query. i email my law tutor like so often -.- and my risk tutor, i just send him a long long email on regarding my concepts. gosh. i hope he doesnt scream or ignore my email. i wanted to consult him personally but tmr's public hols and my paper is next tues and wed. omg.

need a break.

2009-04-07T09:25:00.002+08:00

omg..i think my desktop crashed due to overuse and burnt. its pretty old since sec 3/4? around 4-5years old. whahha. i usually use desktop to print my notes etc . omg. i cant imagine what my dad will say after he realises/hears this.. 2 days ago, my camera charger officially died too-something went loose inside the charger. oh dearr..
camera and computer..OUCH. i feel the pain for daddy!!

2009-04-04T15:31:00.000+08:00

i cant i cant stop myself from surfing the web! i keep looking at spree pages and clothes blogs etc but nthg i like. =( this is bad, coz i will keep on searching until i see sth i like. sound like a shopoholic =X i canttt!!
study study val. 1 week only!
okie bye. i need to lock up my lappie

2009-04-03T14:15:00.002+08:00

i am very very hungry..i just had lunch and a piece of cheesecake and i'm still hungry. gosh. its good time for some carl's junior or bk. hungry hungry and i'm so tireedd. not really tired lah, just a bit erm.. groggy. the monthly affair is coming, explaining why i'm like so moody..

gonna take another short nap! exams in 1 week!

2009-03-28T23:13:00.001+08:00

omg..should i get a pair of oxfords or loafers?!

2009-03-27T16:46:00.003+08:00

i'm super super tired right now..like brain dead. i hardlyb studied much today =X just no mood for books..
this sounds very mean..but i'm suppose to meet baby later at7pm for dinner, but i'm so reluctant to do so. i feel sick! okie. i am sick..down with sore throat.. =(

2009-03-26T19:33:00.002+08:00

i finally visited the dentist after Sooooooo long. you really dont want to know how long. i'm very terrified of dentist since primary school,now you know.
so i walked into the dentist room this afternoon, the dentist said "so valerie, u are here for a general cleaning right?" i plopped down the chair nervously and stated the shake so badly " er..i'm scared.." dentist replied clamly (he actually has a very soothing voice) " no worries" then he checks my teeth using his thrusty metal needle like tools and then with a very serious tone warned " this is not good. it will be painful. you need to split your check up into 2 seperate sessions"

omgg..
there i was, stuck on the chair for half an hour, with my mouth open ( i wasnt not given any break until the end-damn you), and i was clutching to my shorts..very tightly through out the session. it hurts.
and the worst thing is, i have only done the lower teeth.. my next appointment is next week for the upper teeth. the dentist said " i think i will give you a jab for the upper teeth. it will hurt very badly"

faints.

i heard of stories abt ntu dental , in fact many of the stories. they make you come back a few times so that they can charge you more and make you pay for things you dont really need. ( ntu dental charges much cheaper than outside, explains why they use tactic to earn more)

i have decided, i'm not opting for the jab. i really dont think its necessary. as for the additional session, i have no choice ya. since im already half way there.

2009-03-23T21:12:00.001+08:00

dying... back to back presentation tmr, both graded. gosh. i feel so drained!! gonna spend my 1.5 hours wisely before heading to bed. =(

regards
val

2009-03-22T19:48:00.002+08:00

i had good bonding dinner session with my daddy!
mum and bro are out for the night, so dad picked me up after my meeting for dinner.
we had mutton soup for dinner and chatted for like 2 hours. i love the prayer that daddy made before dinner =)

i've just did a dry run on my presentation for tues. i'm do some web surfing before studying.

sucks..exams in 3 weeks!

2009-03-11T17:38:00.003+08:00

i've come to a point where i'm getting tired of my life. i hardly get a nice sleep these days, worrying about unfinished work and how am i going to survive the next day.

i just want to put down everything and fly..fly to somewhere far and unknown, where there's no internet access or mobile phones. so that i dont have to worry about my groupmates emailing/calling me about projects.

and it stinks because i'm going through this alone. somehow my bf's not part of my life now. we lead 2 separate lifes of our own such that i am starting to forget how it feels like to be loved or to love. i dont feel good about the entire issue, i tried my best to let him know but he makes me feel like i'm insane who wants only attention from him. He fails to know how dependent i have been on him, which is not like me at all.

I am scared of feeling helpless, and i need to regain my independence again; me and myself and nobody else. strangely, i know i can..but when i do, i dont love- i become the most selfish person who protects only herself.

this is the time when i just want to club, let the music and booze take over me. but cheapo me doesnt want to spend on entrance fee and wednesday is ladies night but i have thurs 830am lesson.

=(

2009-03-10T21:54:00.002+08:00

one assessed marketing project down.
another one to go!
plus a marketing report due next friday
a company law report due this fri-gonna discuss with cristy-> i attempt to finalize everything by TONIGHT.
205 project due next monday- meeting this friday and hopefully doesnt eat into my Saturday.

bro's birthday this coming Sunday .

ALS booth tomorrow 10am-2pm! my own free day..but what to do, in committee.

i am thinking of what cca to join next yr! prob audit or tax club weeee..

and then...
FINAL EXAMINATIONS IN ONE MONTH.
START REVISIING NOW! DAMMIT

2009-03-08T13:17:00.000+08:00

JIA YOUUU!!!

bro's birthday next week.. baby, what should we get huh huh?

2009-03-04T09:06:00.003+08:00

this post is for the girls!
i dreamt of tun,ming and ale last night. very cool. we were on this road trip. apparantely, i was in Hanoi and i met up with them. Tun drove us around aimlessly! and there were very hilarious moments like truck in front of us, being caught by the local police etc.. it was wayy fun!
i miss my girls =) thats why i dreamt of them..

sidetrack,
internship settled =) praise the Lord!
airtickets booked after internship-10 days Hanoi with baby and 2 of his childhood friends =)

and now...
i'll study freaking hard for exams...

before that...
projects!! essay assignment! omg omg

bye

2009-02-28T15:11:00.002+08:00

i lead a very sad life.. wait, is it even called a life.gosh. its recess week, but i havent even enjoyed a single day of it. its either projects projects or projects. whats new.. its saturday, but i'm stuck at home due to a test on monday. i'm soo tired and grouchy that i snapped at my dad just now, but i cant sleep so long because yada yada a test on monday. ARgHH..

i feel so horrible. tun,ming if you are reading this, i'm so sorry i cant meet you girls for Double O. i saw ur pictures and i'm VERY jealous. there'r more pressing acaedemic things for me to do this holiday...only 1 week. i need retail therapy but no time to physical shop. i'll start virtual shopping.. its mafan coz i dont have ibank, i dont want an ibank. so i have to make trips down to atm machine for transfers. which explains why i'm 2 days late of atm transfer to a spree organizer. nevertheless, i'm not succumbing to apllying for ibanking, i'm pretty confident i will end up busting my account.

the only thing i'm looking forward to is backpacking trip with baby and this 2 friends- which needs confirmation by next week. it all depends on my school stuff.
prior to that, its days of agony to prepare for the final exams, 3 projects due in 2 weeks time, 1 law essay in 1 week and1 marketing essay in 1 week. not forgetting the tax test in 2 days time.

and to worsen things..my projects are screwedddd.
2 marketing -> 2 of my team mates are busy with their minor subjects to even respond to emails. WAH.
1 project -> its like left hanging in the air. i will start to do my part by tomorrow so that the rest can follow up.

S-T-R-E-S-S

2009-02-24T09:43:00.000+08:00

so many things to complete..so little time! gosh.i'm dying.

i need to visit the dentist!! i must i must!

2009-02-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling so stressed out! gosh..there'r a million things to rush during the recess week. PROJECTT!!! my group hasnt started anythg, which freaks me out. because other teams seemed to have started sth, and our first interview is only next monday! and 3 of my members are like top scorers in school, so they'r quite zai lah.. but still..i'm worried.

finally completed the quarters of the business case that lasted from friday 830am to this morning 1130am. crazy . i came home and slept like a pig. soo tired. even now!

once recess week is over, its EXAMS! YESSS. shit. i need to start revising next week ( i wonder how since i have to rush for project. but i dont care!), start printing exam papers as well.

=(( this sem is worst than last sem's ..sighh..

agenda for the recess week
- revise tax
-revise law concepts
- read marketing
- 205 project must must complete as least 3/4
- sun tan
-steamboat!!!
-shopping!!
the last 3 are like optional if i even have the time! =(

2009-02-17T20:20:00.002+08:00

life is so unpredictable..

I was very excited for the volunteer trip to Malaysia this saturday. i have been liaising with the person in charge for so long before the trip has been confirmed. and this afternoon..there's been a twist of fate. i received a call that my team has been offered to enter into the quarter finals of a Business Case. We were originally kicked out after the first round, until one of the qualifying teams got disqualified. I was quite happy about it ,as it means that i could go for the long awaited trip. until this very afternoon.. gosh!

i really dont know how to react. happy or disappointed?

i'm disappointed that i cant make it for the trip but happy that we have another opportunity to make it to the next round.. arghh

i'm gonna get so fried by my committee president.

2009-02-12T21:08:00.002+08:00

planning a backpacking trip from singapore to hanoi to hcm to singapore is driving me nuts. i know baby has done his hwk to find out the air flight prices and internal flights, but i feel that more cost efficient way of travelling can be done. i've sent an email to the vietnam side regarding some details before i get convinced. ya, i know, i'm a feisty old lady. shoot me.

2009-02-11T19:53:00.002+08:00

i have uncountable number of mosquitoe bites all over my arms and legs!! i was bitten by a few "couple" mosquitoes last saturday at elton's 21st party. arghh. and now it seems like the mosquito season is here, i was bitten by a few more in my room. i hate it. i hate to see tiny red marks on my arms!! thankfully it's not those with scars and super itchy ones.. i just cant stand the sight of it.

over the last week, i was down with flue,fever and bad sore throat. thankfully my parents are very good at chinese medicine. i drank some unknown stuff and it got better after 2 days! and now its baby's turn..he's quite sick =( i wish i can be at his side during this time, but he stays like 1.5 hours away from him and our timetable simply doesnt match at all. i havent spoken to him since yester(lasted a mere 10 mins) and havent seen him since monday (lasted only a bus ride to bus terminal approx 20mins). horribleeee.

i just have to look forward to the weekend! v day on sat and dad's birthday on sun. but, i have a major presentation up next fri and we havent finanlised the points yet! stressssssss...

2009-02-06T16:58:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

SOOO TRUEEEE. there's nthg i can refute!

2009-01-26T16:17:00.003+08:00

i'm not in a good mood now, in fact in a horrible angry frustrated mood on the first day of cny.

as courtesy, pls do inform the the person u are meeting that u are going to be late for a meeting. dont let the person call you desperately and only having you to pick up the phone on the 4th call. Dont ever ever make it sounds like its not your fault being late. Whatever reason it is, sms/call whatever to inform the person. i really hate it. 4pm meeting time is not catching the cab at 4pm. its different.

i really hate it. and somehow it happens whenever you come to my place. i try to be understanding the reasonable by calling you only at 4pm to ask about your whereabts.

2009-01-24T14:02:00.001+08:00

2009-01-24T13:48:00.002+08:00

i;m so tiredd!! just finished spring cleaning 2..u must be wondering why is there so many spring cleanings ya. its my dad's tradition of welcoming cny. my dad's still very chinese, he takes cny very seriously, such that it can get quite scary at times. spring cleaning 1 is the initial round of cleaning of windows, polishing of furnishes, thorough wiping of floors, clearing of closests, tables etc etc. its also when the karang guni man earns the most from us.

spring cleaning 2, which is today, is the day before cny eve. on eve, my aunts and uncles (the singles) will come over to my place for reunion dinner. So, it means cleaning of floors (vacumming, steaming and mopping).

spring cleaning 3, the night of cny eve, is the last cleaning before cny. which is TOMORROW.

faints.

but its okie haha. the entire family chips in, its very heart warming to see everyone getting into action. My brother will scrub the toilet, i will vacumm and mop upstairs, my dad the living and dinning area while my mum does the kitchen and the guest room. phewww.

its a pity baby cant join us for reunion dinner, but i am glad too. its time he spends some quality time with his family! i am guilty of stealing him away from his mum =X I discourage him to attend my cny 1 day gathering at my place too, my paternal side is not very nice. =X they might be highly educated but not well liked.

i like my mum's side! lunch over at my dua yi's place on first day of cny =) home-cooked food teochew style of steam promfet, duck soup, fried naohiang, stir fried spinch with pacific clams and sometimes curry chicken haha. its very kampong style, very close !

and i havent thought of what to wear on the first day, i guess it doesnt matter anymore =) kinda grow out of wearing new clothes during cny haha.

i'm gonna put on my exfoliating mask before going out. pictures from the pineapple tart making will be up in 1 min

loves
val

2009-01-23T20:27:00.004+08:00

i'm not in a mood to study now..feeling so restless , its the HOLIDAYSSS! no school until THURSDAY YIPEEEEE. i've tons of work piling up and my cramp hurts... =( wanted to spent my night watching videos, but there arent any nice ones. i do want to rewatch goong, but the videos have been removed! argh.

I cant wait for tmr tmr tmr.. nthg fantastic though, i'm gonna meet baby for a small shopping trip! i pop by f21 at vivo after lesson, bought myself a dress.. but i'm still comtemplating if i should get the lace top. its very very pretty. some may think its very aunty but it can be very classy, depends on how you carry it lah. it looks something like the one below, but its a bit different, prettier i feel- longer in length. it cost like 58$ for this top. sighh.. i need to ask baby about it before deciding whether to get it.

okok..give me 10 more mins before i start my work.. 10 mins.

2009-01-22T17:10:00.003+08:00

i just came home from schl, after a night's of stay over at bf's hall. yawnn. i can never sleep over at his places, nor can i study. we end up eating and jogging =.= but it was good to spent some quality time with him =) gonna have to revise my work later before i start lagging.

cny is coming! not very excited though, the thought of getting ang baos no longer holds any significance to me since quite some time ago. i'm still thinking about my lost mail arghh. i'm very sure its lost somewhere, hopefully the PO can get back to me by tmr. there goes my red dress and lace bib top!! aahahhh. so suay! even my birkenstocks didnt get lost before..

on brighter note, baby and i are heading to town on sat for some last min shopping for him. i dont intended to get anything though, gonna save $$ for some other stuff. hopefully we will go out lah, but i have this feeling we will end up lazing at my place =p

2009-01-21T11:28:00.002+08:00

the economy is getting worst," nation was in its worst ever recession and fanning expectations that the central bank will let its currency weaken" as quoted from Reuters. Its very daunting, imaging retrenchment at a rise all because of human greed that led to today's situation. Undeniably, i'm getting worried about my parents' jobs as well. My dad is working at a Japanese firm, and japan is not at a good shape at all. My mum is in the service industry, which when during recession hits the greatest, especially in Asian country. There's nothing much anybody can do in this situation that can help cushion the impact. As for me, it means prudent spending, i dont want to be in situation whereby i start regretting of spending too much and not saving enough.. i'm glad my parents trained my bro an i to be mindful of our accounts. From primary school, i would save my coins in a piggy bank my dad gives me, even till now, i keep such habits. As we grow older, we become more responsible in money matters. My dad will transfer allowance to our accounts, and we are left to decide how much to spend/ save. We dont ask for extra money except for school books. Its not longer in the past whereby i ask my dad for shopping money. Now, i shop with my savings. I feel so ashamed to ask my dad for extra money, i feel guilty. Its good training =)

Brings to me the case about civil servant spending a bomb on his holiday despite the economic downturn. Personally, its not wrong, his spending is from his savings and its his personal wish to spend it whatever ways he likes.

But, it struck me as how much civil servants are paid, is the pay even worth it? sometimes are feel as though the lack of transparency over such issues deemed as sensitive. But why is it so sensitive? when their pay is from the taxpayers. We as taxpayers have a right to know .
And 10-20% pay cut for civil servants..hey man, it sounds damn a lot but considering the fact they earn very high..its really substantial to how many people getting retrenched for this crisis. or maybe because of many being retrenched, means lesser taxes collected and which translate to lesser pay for the civil servants.

to reduce my personal liability : my above post has no particular intention of hurting anybody. it is a personal opinion.

2009-01-20T15:41:00.002+08:00

i'm super sad now..my package got lost in the mail!! F** its 57 dollars worth of a dress and a top! i was hoping to wear the dress for cny..FCUK. i never had a problem with normal mails before NEVER. i spree since JC till now, nthg has got lost. and why am i so suay now?!! its been a week since the person sent out the package. unless she bluff me about the date she sent the items. IDIOT. i have this feeling she kinda bluff me regarding the date. WTH.

PISSED

2009-01-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

i'm now at baby's, staying over for the night. we ate mini steamboat just now at one of our canteens, really cheap thrill haha. and ended the dinner with grean tea soya ice cream from mr bean, baby ate the entire dessert!

i tried to read law just now, but ended up sleeping till now yawwnnnn. feeling so drained out even though its onlt the start of the week!! i need to catch up soon first thing i reach home tmr. i reckon i will sleep soon as welll, feeling the legarthicness from weekend. =(

i need to losee weighht! sigh.. my mum better not see this, she'll prob scold me again

2009-01-18T22:13:00.002+08:00

today's been a very tiring yet enjoyable day..because we made pineapples tarts!! my auntie (daisy), my mum, bro and I =) auntie and mum grated and cooked the pineapple last week (lots and lots of work, i salute my aunt for that haha) And the entire family got involved in making the pastry from mixing the dough, kneading, pinching,filling,designing,baking..phew! we started at 10am till 4pm!! Nonstop action in the kitchen! we only had 0.5 hour of lunch break haha. Its really hard work and the quantity is very little considering the time we put in. It was very very fun though , my auntie especially haha. my bro and i were laughing like mad about her actions. goodness.

i miss the days when the entire family will make chinese new year goodies at my aunt's place ( auntie lucy). We will make love letters and pineapple tarts at the same time! Fanning the charcoal, my auntie (daisy) will grate the pineapple, auntie lucy will make the mixture for the love letters. and all the kids, mainly my bro, me and vivian will all help out. It was way way fun. it was the time when the entire family (my mum's side) will get into action, churning out nice smelling pastries one after another. However, as time passes, the older generation got lazy and it slowly stopped.. Only when i requested this cny that my auntie decided to make tarts providing my bro and i helped out. Its way too much work..but very very satisfying! i cant wait for the next CNY, we are going to make this green bean cake and hopefully love letters too! but i need to pursude auntie lucy first. She's the best at this!

Pictures of the baking process will be up soon!

And i'm still looking for my cny clothes.. -.- one dress and top are still on its way to my place, somewhere with the mail man. Hopefully my VS dress reaches in time too!

2009-01-16T13:35:00.002+08:00

i've dropped malay!!
and this sem is so far the slackest in terms of AUs and time table, but also the xiong-est.

i'm going to sound like a nerd..but heck lah. i will have to start revising early this semester, meaning printing exam papers later and start doing them once the topic is covered.

i need to shop =((

2009-01-14T09:04:00.002+08:00

i'm dying in school right now..its super taxing and stressful this sem. so far the worst out of the 4 semesters. i feel so stifled by all the work.. damn.

do i even have a choice.?

2009-01-10T10:42:00.002+08:00

i just cute my hairrrr ..and it looks like a mushroom head! GOSH..i fell asleep during the haircut ..sighh.

i miss my long shoulder length hair =((

very very very depressed..

pls dont laugh at me..

2009-01-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

i'm not looking forward to chinese new year..simply because i'm stressed up in school and i haven't bought my clothes yet!!

its amazing how during the 1 month holiday, i didnt buy anything- except for formal wear at G2000 sale.
Every morning, i start to think very hard on what to wear to school. I dont like jeans because its super hot. i cant always wear shorts to school. I do not have enough of those casual T shirts. I cant wear skirt to school (my skirts are quite short). and i dont have new dresses for school.

today after school, i popped by vivo hoping to grab something, i was in the mood for spending ya. i visited F21, p&b, zara, mango.. but nothing caught my eyes. The colours are so dull, not what i'm looking for. so went home empty handed..

Now i'm surfing the web F21 online hoping to get something, but there's nthg!! Gosh, i guess i need to start diverting my sources to online blogshops now. DESPERATE.

I HATE SCHOOL.

2009-01-08T19:06:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry

2009-01-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

i'm now in hall waiting for the bf to return from his track training..yawn, its already 11.17pm and i havent eaten!! yess..i was soo busy that i didnt eat dinner. goodness.i'm famished!! but waiting for the boy before i steal his maggi noodles. and he promised to bring me out for supper later...we'll see =(

this semester is tough. very tough!! i'm struggling to keep myself afloat, the modules are extremely difficult. sighh..i need to have at least B+ for all my mods and i'm already wondering if i can even make it. There'r no lecture notes for this sem.. which stinks as it means consistent readings and understanding.

okie..now he's back...

2008-12-29T06:24:00.002+08:00

i just checked my results for last semester.. what can i say. i could have done a bit better, but i guess everyone can do better = )

but i am definitely very glad abt my results!! i need to maintain or increase the grades in order to continue as a second upper grad in 1.5 years time.

i was sooo worried yester, i said my prayers and headed for bed when i could have stayed online until 12am. Thank Him for calming my nervous and rewarding me the fruits of my labour.

A stronger and more determined woman for the next 1.5 years, especially next sem. I can do it with His help =))

Good morning world

2008-12-28T17:32:00.003+08:00

this year's xmas celebration has been relatively quiet..there is no sense of xmas spirit around. i guess because i didnt get to meet my 2 cousins the Js for xmas dinner. Thankfully baby was around for the family dinner on eve and the day it self. If not, i will be really bored =X

i have been spending tons of time with baby the last week. I went to school last saturday for his soccer tournament (they won) but not fanastically before heading down to bugis for some yummalicious steamboat. It was my treat to him before school resumes next week. And he stayed over last night as well! i must say he's really good at wrapping the ties i bought for my mentors at work.

Hopefully, cross my fingers, i get to meet my jc mates on 30th december! and am hoping to spend my new year eve with them too..prob at somebody's place haha. shall give siloso beach party a miss !

i dunnoe..it is so strange to receive a call/sms from a friend you havent met for like 4 years! we used to be best of buddies in secondary schl. it is not that i dont want to meet up, but the horrible things i hear about the person. i am really not sure if i shld meet up...

2008-12-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

xmas eve is in less than 24 hours.. =)

this year's pretty quiet , i havent gotten into the whole xmas mood yet. i doubt i will until prob when the church bells ring at 12am tmr.

at least i only have to work for half day tmr. =x

baby and i have both exchanged our gifts. i bought baby his running shoes, i'm always buying him shoes. hopefully he doesnt run away with them.

baby bought for me my firsy 4 digit handbag from mulberry Bayswater series http://www.mulberry.com/#/storefront/c113/2585/ but in a different colour .

absolutely perfect for a growing woman entering the working world soon! but i promised not to open the box until xmas!

2 more weeks to the last day of work..and the begining of a new school term.

goodnight

2008-12-14T20:39:00.002+08:00

My parents , bf and i travelled down to Malaysia JB today. Its my bf first trip to Malaysia (yaya) and mine first trip since sec 4! haha. Honestly, i get those goosebumps whenever i travel there, its this feeling of insecurity.. (shrugs).

It was a relatively good and regretful trip. REALLY. gosh.. there's this miscommunication between my mum and i. I was trying on this business jacket, and i didnt know she wanted me to buy it. So, i didnt! though she paid for the items, she failed to realize the missing jacket. So after returning from the trip, she was raving about the jacket i bought blah blah.. And soon came to realize i didnt buy it. My bf was my witnesse, that she didnt say to go ahead in buying the jacket. I tell you, the jacket was good deal. RM59 for a good quality ( velvetly material) is totally worth it. Oh second though then at the place, i wasnt really keen for the jacket. I mean, if she said to buy it, i would have.. i mean..she's paying for it =XX

Well, i still feel a bit heartache within, but if its supposed to be.. Let it be. Probably better deals coming my way!

So at the end of the trip:
I bought 1 pants, 2 tops, 1 belt, 1 necklace and 1 earrings - i loveee my items. As in L-O-V-E
my mum: 1 blouse, 2 shoes - the shoes i must admit are S-E-X-Y . 1 of them were from me as her xmas present

the guys including my dad and bf went home empty handed haha

and not forgetting:
lots and lots of food.
my bf commented "ur family really spend a lot on grocery shopping"
true! we do spend more on food than clothes.

2008-12-12T09:06:00.002+08:00

i'm at client's place aloneeee... ya.. A-L-O-N-E. my seniors are off for company retreat at Batam. I was denied request to return to main office due to some work left.

i'm gonna finish up my work before i leave the office.
as for tonight, farewell dinner with a uni friend who's leaving for Seattle. Probably head back home first to put down my laptop. I have this fear that i may lose my laptop if i bring it out later. After the dinner, depending on my energy level left , may meet up with JC class at clark quay for some late night craziness.

should i get a pair of oxfords? i need a shoe to match my jeans..
i still have until 4pm to decide =X

Oh yes, Daddy's getting Confirmed this saturday!! = ))

2008-12-08T22:31:00.002+08:00

i think i am damn suay when it comes to course registration. I NEVER ever managed to bid for my own time slots i want.. the last time, i was a bit too slow in clicking (my fault).

Now, the system hanged on me..WTF. because of this,i couldnt take any slots except for a 5 day week. WTF . my time table's really screwed with like 830 -1030 lesson followed by 2 hour break then 2 hour lesson than 2 hour break than lesson. WTH. and i have only one morning 830 lesson on friday. wtf.

I think i'm gonna be a lone ranger next sem, really man, who will actually be so suay to kana the same suay timetable as me..

i can only think on a bright side, that probably it is fated to be so.

oh, i just came back from massive shopping with my parents. =) it was good! noot only in terms of buys but also bonding session with my mum.!
hopefully, things will be like in the future =)

2008-12-07T20:16:00.002+08:00

i spree-d for 2 dresses from asos. both came in the wrong size. its my fault actually, i was too eager to order the dresses that i unconsciously submitted the wrong size. its 4 sizes too big for me, such that it can fit 1.5 of me in the dress.

such that i gonna make the attempt to sell them off at sgflea. i dont like the idea of keeping clothes in my cupboard that dont fit at all. i have this urge of throwing the dresses away instead of selling them off. dont get me wrong k. but it is a hassle to buy envelopes and postage stamps etc. oh well, i will wait for 1 week before i dispose them. ahhhh.. $80plus gone.

hmmm..as for the holidays, i have been interning at a medium sized audit and tax firm. i have learnt a lot during my past 1 week there such that i enjoy going to work.

Baby's is working and i'm feeling very very bored..ahh.

yawn..

2008-11-27T00:36:00.002+08:00

exams have ended, not very sure what to say about the last paper-forensic science. it was quite a shocking paper, well, this module is highly popular in ntu because of its relatively easy paper. but, this yr's was quite different from the previous papers. pretty challenging i must say.

baby and i hanged out at sentosa followed with slight shopping.. nthg much really. came home for dinner with the parents and we both fell asleep whaha. what's new huh.

anyway, from now till sunday, i will be doing a lot a lot of catching up with uni mates. my unforgettable jc clique after THEIR NUS exams. arghz.

tmr- dinner with the class
sat- dinner with sel and zhi hong

the rest of the days, spent with 2 most important person. daddy and baby!

i'm gonna give dad a birthday surprise, aiming to get him a handphone =) i'm gonna give my dream phone E71 in exchange for his samung phone. all worth it!

till then! =))

2008-11-24T09:12:00.002+08:00

WHAT'S THE DAMN PROBLEm WITH HOTMAIL?!!! i have been trying to gain access to my inbox since yesterday. the alignments are crazy, i cant scroll down. whats the problem with the new layout and the sucky system.

speaking about ismorphism.

2008-11-19T09:44:00.002+08:00

Reading the papers or listening to the news, is not something which i dont look forward to. Just at the front page "XXX company going to axe XXXX employees". NOL singapore largest shipping giant is axing 1000 jobs, more than DBS bank.

its scary, the thought of the same fate onto people close to you, especially our parents. I hava a fear that one day, my dad will return home early, not because of MC but because of retrechment. Yes, its the taboo word esepecially in such bad economic environment.

Who can we blame? but greed. Human greed in both consumers, investors and money lenders led to a whole whirlwind of credit crunch situtation we are now facing. Who can be realy spared from the possibility of being axed, well except its an iron rice bowl job, not explicitly mentioning the few examples.

Currently, the big players are in the move in restructuring process, next up probabily will be the small players. Would US finacial aids to big players like the 3 major car dealers really help? or is it just to stall time? i shall not comment.

Should i count myself ignorant or lucky to be student? Working adults feel the pressure, but not us. We are 'insulated' by such looming current affairs that we unconsciously are been ignorant about it. most of us are not directly in contact with monetary issues, we dont need to worry about food, lodging, paying of bills , unlike our parents. such that we continue spending frivolously and guilty of spending them mindless. Even i am not spared from such mindset.

As for me, no more sprees and mindless buys from TODAY.

God save the World.

2008-11-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

sigh...2 major papers in back to back this coming wed and thurs. its so major and hopeless that i'm afraid of getting a big F. its the toughest paper i have ever encountered. gosh.. total of 3 papers left followed by freedom of mere 4 days break before i start work.

our initial plan to enjoy a short getaway is unfortunately cancelled. baby's passport expires in less than 6 months and his papers will only end 2 weeks from now haha. in fact, we end on the same day. oh well, prob shall just book a hotel in The Sentosa and chill. if not, i do have a long wish list for the holidays. 1) sun tan 2)dvd marathons 3)shopping shopping shopping 4)sleep-ins 5)ffooooddddd

not very long lah, but how much i do in 4 days HUHHH.

i want to visit baby's hometown next yr-HK!! but ... compulsory internship starts right after exams next yr. CRIES!

STUDDYY!!!

2008-11-11T21:04:00.002+08:00

i am urgently looking for office wear, specifically either HK or Korean. WHY?!!! there was once when the whole korean office wear was like the IN things, sprees for it were like streaming nonstop. I KNEW, I SAW, but i was plain lazy to order. NOW i'm having difficulty finding them, Zipia offers a few nice designs, but 34$USD, for it. i rather stick to espirit.

For kind passer-bys who happen to know of such sprees/suppliers. let me know . oh yea, i have no tag board, nor do i like divulging my contacts. oh well , hopefully someone will let me know..

ps: boy and i both have jobs for the hols! i'll be interning at Cecil street, he will be at T3. we both start on the 1st december but he ends earlier than me. on a good note, i have him for Xmas!

loves
val

2008-11-10T17:36:00.002+08:00

exams are taking a toil on me, i feel horrendously stifled by the education system. It stinks because its no longer like JC or Secondary school, where the only important exam is 'O' or 'A' levels. Imgaine yourself sitting A levels every 4 months of school. Its really crazy.

Sometimes i wonder why tutors are even paid so much, Universities are suppose to be led/facilitated by some of the best talents around. Ironically, some of them somehow do not go through proper screening if they have ability to deliver. Its so weird/strange how my parents are paying off their retirement money (from cpf), hoping that good standard of education is served. But hey, little did they know we do most of our learning on our own, through reading books and GOOGLING. i love wikipedia. its like my ultimate dictionary, its FREE.

This posts is not to slam universities lectures/professors. I personally met a few that are geniuely educators of society. Its really rare to find uni tutors that are patient and understanding. While others are "er...okie..i get back to you later" . okieee.... Promoting self discovery/learning in uni is one thing, but paying them highly for not producing "quality" work is another issue all together. honestly, what is "faciliated learning?" on what grounds can the tutors start defending themselves on this often used term.

Hence, some transparency on how the tutors were engaged and on what criteras really need to be known.

2008-11-06T16:02:00.002+08:00

Internship during the December holidays- Settled.

just hope my colleagues will be a fun batch.

Goodbye